bedtime story

somedays when i'm alone,
i wish that you were here.
somedays when i stare at the sun,
i wish that i could bring it near.

i feel useless and i feel restless
every time we're set apart,
i'm in need of a real princess
that'll take care of my aching heart.

have you heard a song
of ill gotten love and glory?
well, let me tell you
and it won't take long
for it's just a bedtime story.

can i take you far
and let you sleep all day?
well, let me tell you
i love all you are
and you take my breath away.

you know i wrote these words
with you on my mind,
and i know you love birds
'cause your heart is pure and kind.

but somedays you feel at bay
as a bird trapped in a cage,
just remember i'll always stay
and appease your growing rage.

i wish, but i can't

i wish i could hand you your dreams on a plate.
i can't...
...but i won't stop trying.

forgive this relentless love

how can a man know your abyss,

when you lock yourself out of words?

i try to read you with a kiss,

but your mind just wanders like birds.

if i knew how to make you glad,

i'd be as happy as a man can be,

i'd give up all i've ever had

and just hold you next to me.

you've been hurt and so have i,

but as one we can heal

and never will we ask why

we feel the way we feel.

our love is like a vicious game

we grow very anxious to play

as we whisper each other's name

for every second we're away.

forgiveness is all i ever ask

for loving you as much as i can.

because i threw away my mask,

i am now a jealous man.

a piece of paper fell out of my heart

i love you. i love you and i will love you, for as long as there is sight in my eyes to see you and strength in my lips to whisper indiscernibly: i love you.

the ghost of you

the ghost of an unseen past
has corrupted my mind,
for that echo may well last
more lives than i can find.

if i find truth in your eyes,
in me there may be hope
dressed in a black disguise
that's hanging from a rope.

there's a rope around my throat
and poison through my veins,
it's her words i still quote
"abandon me in chains."

these chains around my heart
split opened me in two,
it's neither science nor art -
it's the absence of you.

as with the absence of a drug,
i can't control the shakes -
i feel not a man but a bug
that thrives on self-mistakes.

do forgive the mistake i am,
leave and be forever gone,
it's me and me that i condemn
and sentence to be alone.

i'm alone deep in my soul,
i can't forget and i can't leave -
i've this love i cannot control
and a passion that's still naive.

my passion is a blinded fool,
these chains to bear are mine,
for those words were as cruel
as a dagger through my spine.

don't

it's been long, far too long,
since i've let it wide open,
though it doesn't feel wrong,
i fear to become broken.

think of and only nought,
how i wish i could ask you such,
but i won't - i can not,
for i love you just too much.

you are as free as a bird,
with strong wings and vibrant,
for those who haven't heard
let it remain forever silent.

only one thing i implore:
make me not a fool of a man,
when i just left the floor
that held me when i ran.

life is as you paint it,
with the colors love should be,
but even if i can't admit:
think of and only me.

the heart's key

alas, my love, how i deeply regret
that i lied about the key to my heart;
i did it only for my mind was set
not to fall for you from the very start.

all alone, months and years have passed me by,
i paced the streets with the key for display;
though i promised my eyes shall never cry,
i let the rain cleanse this anguish away.

my strength's fading, i'll carry it no more
and throw it into the deepest ground hole;
forgive this fool for not seeing before,
not only was it yours as is my soul.

if it's not your desire to break the chain,
it's my desire never to love again.

a dinner best served cold

we talked and agreed to meet
and we'd do it tonight,
my thoughts, never so sweet,
completely blurred my sight.

it all seemed fine,
a perfect waking dream,
up until o'clock nine
when all light grew dim.

for our first dinner,
i prepared a trick and a treat,
should you feel as a sinner,
i'd cleanse you head to feet.

the table for two was set,
but of you no sign was read,
how could i just forget
god himself wishes me dead.

i started to worry
"what could have i done?"
i felt anger and fury
that i was mocked and alone.

i kept thinking "all i did,
i did it out of passion,
the greatest feeling i ever hid
was my dearest possession."

i will shut my only door,
for i am in over my head,
because i'll spend once more
the night alone in my bed.

put me to sleep

if i was forced to dream, but could choose the dream, then i'd dream about spheres. i'd walk them over and over again, never getting tired and never getting nowhere. that's the dream, my dream, never to wake up again.