Friday, May 8, 2015

your brown coat

in that spot I stood, calmly waiting,
patiently playing that game unfair
you gave me clues and sent me searching
and intensely I searched here and there
for the bright and beautiful one
I looked left, right, up and down
and saw many people having fun
as I wished your coat long and brown.

the wind touched slightly upon my hair
and the sun did slap me in the back
while there I was — just sit and stare —
I couldn't find you, but didn't regret.
then I gazed upon such fair maidens
that joyfully danced to heaven's song
so I sent word through all the ravens
that I wished your coat brown and long.

it was only at the end of my quest
that I did see you arriving there
and my heart gave me no further rest
as all I did was sit, breath and stare.
we talked for hours and hours on end
as the kids played in the background
because I didn't have to pretend
that I loved both your eyes and sound.

then darkness came and settled in
as the clocked ticked the time to go
and your lovely image cannot be unseen
and this you really must let me know:
did ever mercy cross your eyes
before they settled upon my heart?
did ever you speak to me not lies
or was it your wish to break me apart?

Saturday, February 21, 2015

in my head

as i lay sitting at night in my bed,
i've all these fantasies crawling
and all these dreams are calling,
teasing me up inside my head.

i shut my eyes as if i were dead,
darkness enters my tired thought
and to live a dream i desire not
unless i'm trapped inside my head.

echoing are the words that she said
as if a busy train from north to south
as if acid rain came out of her mouth
and all the drops fell into my head.

messages were written but never read
for blind i was and could not see
that only death could set me free —
even if i'm only dead in my head.

in my bed, where you have bled,
there is a spot that makes it true,
someone was here and it was you
...or was it all inside my head?

i get up startled from my bed
and stare at the spot that's vivid red,
how could it ever have driven me mad
if i didn't made you inside my head?

i have a wish: i wish i was dead,
but that wish i wish, then i wish it not
for i want to wish and i wish a lot
that i'm as dead as i am in my head.

Sunday, January 4, 2015

walking alone with you

hey! are you there?
listen closely
to the words i have to say
before i change my mind.

i've traveled everywhere
and it's lovely
to think that you can stay
a little in my mind.

i think that i should,
in my head,
take you out for a ride
and then we'll be fine.

bring me the good
and the bad,
i don't care what you decide
as long as you're mine.

i didn't think i could walk alone...

hey, can i come?
i can't wait,
been thinking all day long
of when i'll be with you.

it's leaving me numb,
oh! this fate
that's pulling me so strong
always towards you.

i think that i can
understand
what the others talk about
when they mention love.

believe that i ran
through this land
and now i have no doubt
that you are the best of.

i don't want to go on all alone...